I'll sleep here.” Wonwoo answered without even looking at Junhui and put the milk on the weensy table beside his best friend's bed. The older one shook his head and gave up. He climbed up on Wonwoo’s bed and sat beside his best friend while Wonwoo snaked his arms around Junhui’s waist and the latter can feel a twitch in his heart having the idea of their position. He told himself that it is fine and he is used to it, but seeing Wonwoo like this is painful to him yet he can’t stop his heart from fluttering and he just wants the time to stop so they will stay in their position. Who knows? You're kind and both of you have been together for so long. I'm quite sure he has had feelings for you for some time.” Chan continued convincing Junhui that there's hope. There really is. Will you stop? You’re too cute. Junhui said to himself as if Wonwoo would be able to hear what he was saying. Junhui shed tears. All the pain that he hide for a long time is finally going out through his eyes and he can feel how Wonwoo is in pain because he misses his best friend so much, too.

Why is it hard to love? Why is love always accompanied by grief? Why should someone sacrifice? Can't they just be happy while in love? No, because love is enveloped with pain and they both hate it. But they’re just victims of love, and cannot do anything but to accept it. Sorry, I don’t know what he usually does and how long he is staying here since it’s my first time accompanying him. I bet you already memorized every step the doctor is doing since you’re the one who is always with him, right?” Chan proceeds with a wide smile and that makes Junhui feel so bad.There was a moment of silence as they prepared their food, when a sudden thought occurred in Junhui’s head. “Why Uyu?” No, he’s not mad at Wonwoo nor at Chan. The latter is like an angel and he knew he was kind for giving him a genuine smile every time their eyes met. Junhui can also sense that Chan is collecting his courage to start a talk between them.

I said, I’m leaving. I’m going to Europe after graduation to study again. That’s why I have the courage to tell everything to you even if I’m scared so I can leave without regrets.” Junhui explained plainly, trying his best to hide the pain he has. I should’ve told you everything. These are the words that keep on repeating inside his head the moment they enter the clinic. It was only five minutes ago since Wonwoo went inside the laboratory but he wanted to go home and anxious thoughts were dominating his head. He just keeps on glancing at Chan from time to time but his heavy feeling is enough to forbid him from starting a conversation with the younger. Wonwoo, Mingyu has a crush on you.” Junhui found himself telling Mingyu’s confession to him to Wonwoo one day. It was just a normal thing for them to talk about people because they promise to each other that they will keep no secrets to one another, even if it is a secret from other people. This became his constant question whenever he was being so strange about his feelings when Wonwoo was with him. Even Junhui can not understand himself. It’s weird and it makes him feel anxious because he wants to know about what that feeling is.Both are suffering. They both want to be happy but they are both hurting. And none of them knew what to do to escape the sadness in their hearts. In fact, it's not hard for him to make Chan close to him. But the situation and his feelings are making it harder and more complicated. Seeing your special someone being deeply in love, happy and contented with someone else is a torture for him. He would rather choose to be teased by Wonwoo, than seeing them together with stinging eyes. Ah! Mom, will you please be gentle? It hurts already, don’t augment it anymore.” He groans, diverting the topic一and that’s his specialty; avoiding things that he refused to believe even if it is already palpable. They spent most of their time together since they’re classmates and their houses are just beside each other. Sometimes, Wonwoo spends his nights in Junhui’s house since he was alone. They play games when they have time, hang-out in the nearest park they are in, eat ice cream, drink milk一which is Wonwoo’s all time favorite, laugh hard as if they’re about to vomit, do crazy things such as ringing their neighbor’s doorbell and then run when someone opened the door一it’s their hobby. Helping each other in projects, went to guidance office when they did some unhinged things, celebrating each other’s birthday, fight about small things like who is stronger一Iron Man or Captain America? Nothing actually changed. None at all aside from being more intimate to each other since Wonwoo’s mother died.